I realized that I kinda made it sound like life is peachy keen, and I kinda need to vent. So here we go!
I'm actually quite lonely this summer. Again. Last year I was upset because I was away from all of my friends from GV and my boyfriend, and this year I'm lonely because aside from my boyfriend, I'm not really friends with anyone on this side of the state. I mean, my new roommate is great, but she's gone a lot, so we haven't really gotten to know each other super well, much less hang out on a regular basis. But I really do feel like I have no friends. For example, this is the third Saturday night in a row that I have sat by myself in my apartment doing nothing. Don't get me wrong, I love my alone time, but this is ridiculous. I want some human interaction. I want to talk to someone about boys, makeup, drama, anything. I need a friend. Badly.
Also kinda on the similar subject...my boyfriend broke up with me about a month ago. We got back together 5 days later, but it's still hard to deal with that fact. I mean, things were never perfect, but I didn't think they were so bad that instead of talking to me and being open about his feelings, he had to break up with me. Those 5 days were horrid. But I really do hope that things will work out. We're talking more, and making sure to do things without each other as well as with each other (or rather, he does stuff, I sit at home...sigh). I really do love him, so hopefully things will be ok.
Another thing: when I first started writing this blog, I made a mental note to keep people anonymous in case someone I knew found this and realized that I was referring to them. But I decided that I don't really care anymore about first names, so here's a list of characters for reference: My boyfriend = Nate, my current roommates = Stefanie and Katie (Katie hasn't moved in yet), my former roommate who I hated = Nikita, my former roommate with whom I was severely annoyed = Stephanie. I think that's it. Obviously no last names, but whatever.
Anyway, if I can think of anymore things to discuss, I will post. Probably tomorrow.
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